I’ve never dealt with social anxiety before. I thrived off of interactions with friends and coworkers. I loved going out and I enjoyed being busy. Now I find myself grappling with a lot of social anxiety.
I signed up for a baby sign language class with C. Once per week, we’re supposed to be at a local community center by 9:30am and spend an hour at class. There’s circle time and play time, and I need to make small talk with other parents that I don’t know. For the past few months, I find it almost impossible to manage small talk. My mind goes blank and I start to get sweaty and uncomfortable. I feel like everyone is looking at me and they’re all judging me.
I overcame my anxiety to attend the first class, but last week C and I stayed at home. I didn’t feel well, and I’m not sure how much of that was caused by my PPD and anxiety. I couldn’t fathom being stuck in a room for an hour with a bunch of strangers, forced to chat with them.
Sign language is something I’d really like to learn for C. I’d love to be able to bridge the communication gap and help him “talk” to us before he learns to verbalize his needs. It also would stink to lose out on the $50 I paid for the class!
Do you have any tips for overcoming social anxiety? Rationally, I know that others aren’t judging me like I think they are. I just can’t stop myself from thinking and feeling these things. I look forward to enjoying being social again. Someday, it’ll be nice to feel like my outgoing self.