A Letter to C on His 1st Birthday

My sweet little C turns one this weekend, so I’ve written this letter to him to commemorate the occasion.

Happy 1st Birthday, my C-Monkey!  We are so happy that you’ve come into our lives and filled it with so much love and adventure.

You are very investigative.  When you were very small, you carefully watched everything and everyone around you.  Now, you get into everything!  You always need to inspect everything to figure out what it is, how it works and even how it tastes.

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Be Gentle

“Be Gentle.”  I say these two words to C countless times throughout the day.  I don’t know why I don’t apply them to myself. I’ve only had three appointments with my therapist, but I feel like we’ve covered a lot of ground in a short amount of time.  At my last appointment, we discussed negative thoughts – how to control them, combat them and make them positive.  I realized that I think pretty awful things.  Things I could never (and would never) say to someone else.

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When Do You Decide To Let Go?

We’ve all had friendships end.  Some end abruptly with an argument, others simply fade.  The ones that fade can be as difficult as the ones that end dramatically.

A couple friendships that I once held dear seem to have faded away.  I don’t know how it happened, and I can’t recall when it started.  I’ve tried to reach out, even when the idea of putting myself out there was terrifying.   I didn’t know what to say or where to start.  A text wasn’t returned.  A Facebook post was ignored.  A birthday gave me the opportunity to leave a voicemail.

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Comfort Food at Its Finest

Sweatpants, Law & Order: SVU, and Ben & Jerry’s Half-Baked.  I’ve been wallowing a little lately.

Confession: I really want a second baby.
Problem: It’s probably not the right time for us to have baby deuce.

And that makes me sad.  When I’m sad, I wallow.  And when I wallow, I eat Ben & Jerry’s Half-Baked.

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