On complete frustration with mental health care.

Today I went from elation and relief to a minor breakdown to feeling alienated and alone.

About two years ago when I had successfully tapered off antidepressants after my second round of postpartum mood disorders, my psychiatrist told me that he was moving to the east coast for a teaching position. That is precisely how I ended up seeing my primary care physician about my current depression. Last week I ended up in the ER because of an adverse drug reaction to generic Lexapro (escitalopram).

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I’ve Still Got a Lot of Fight Left in Me

I've Still Got a Lot of Fight Left in Me

There is nothing better than squeezing these little faces after a tough day. Tears fell just before I snagged that picture last night. I spent yesterday morning in a hospital bed. The official diagnosis is an adverse drug reaction to generic Lexapro, but that doesn’t seem to properly classify what I’m feeling. I’ll detail my symptoms below for anyone who is going through something similar. I know I was scouring the Internet on Wednesday night to find out if anyone had the same effects from escitalopram (Lexapro) that I have. I feel a little defeated and a lot tired, but you know what? I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me.

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More Time Together

Piggy Back Ride with Daddy

The kids and I became accustomed to not seeing much of Hubster. Residence Life is an awesome, exciting, rewarding field, but it does require significant dedication and time. It’s been amazing how much our family life has already changed in the two weeks he has been in his new role in student affairs. We are enjoying more time together. We could get used to this!

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(Kinda) Wordless Wednesday: Learning to Write Letters

Learning to write on iPad

While I’m working, Baby Jo is often “working” right next to me. She does puzzles, plays games that teach her about cars, numbers and letters, and she learns to write! That’s correct – my two-year-old is amazing me with how she is learning to write letters! I’m so happy that she is doing well with her fine motor skills and enjoys learning.

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I’m Searching For My Voice

For a long time, you could look here daily and find a new post from me. I was overflowing with ideas and things to share. Slowly, I started to lose myself. Instead of wanting to run, I wanted to rest. Instead of wanting to write, I wanted to sleep. Depression gained its hold and took over every facet of my life. I have always had something to write, but this time I find myself searching for my voice.

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