After waiting 12 weeks to see pictures of our little blessing, it was super fun to see that our bean has transformed into a healthy baby boy! Seeing his little movements was so fun. We came home with nine ultrasound pictures of him, including his face, profile, hands and feet. He’s also measuring a week ahead, although my doctor is not changing my due date. We’re excited to meet our little boy in April!
The anticipation of seeing him had me cycling through moments of anxiety, excitement and complete calm that morning. It was nice to see him, his healthy little limbs and organs and to find out who’s in there! Now we can give him a name and stop calling him “it” and “the baby”. It’s so much more personal now.
Tomorrow morning we have the anatomy ultrasound and will be finding out the gender of our baby! I am so excited and filled with anticipation that I even had trouble sleeping last night. I don’t think I’ll be getting any sleep tonight either. Even more than wanting to know what we’re having, I am hoping that everything will be okay with the baby’s anatomy. Five fingers and toes on each hand and foot please!
Some mothers feel super emotionally connected to their babies right away. Obviously, we’re physically connected to our babies. Even though I would never want anything to happen to my child and sometimes worry that the anatomy scan will reveal only 4 fingers instead of 5, I still don’t find myself talking or singing to my baby like some women do. I’ve recently come to learn that it takes some mothers longer for that connection to develop, and that’s okay.
It wasn’t until this week (week 18) that I was able to feel the baby move. It doesn’t happen all the time, but once in a while when I’m sitting still or lying down I can feel the baby moving and swimming all around. Between being able to feel my baby and finding out the sex next Friday, I think that will help me to feel more emotionally connected to him or her. It will be so much easier for me once I know if it’s going to be Caleb or Hailey. Feeling my baby move makes me realize that they’re really in there moving, growing and developing. Before it was kind of a concept to me…something growing inside me that was making me bigger by the day. It’s becoming more real and part of me, and I look forward to being able to feel kicks and call the baby by name.
When did your emotional connection begin?