I can’t even express how awesome it is to see my boy’s personality returning. He was still my sweet, funny C, but he had lost that wide-eyed, adventurous fierceness that he’s had since birth. Well, my little boy is regaining that part of himself. He’s been running through the hallways so much that I’m sure all of the nursing staff knows who he is.
Now, that’s my boy. That mischievous, adventurous, joyful spark has returned to his eyes. Today was quite a positive day. After receiving two 4-ounce tube feedings yesterday, he woke up with a little more energy. He ate his usual graham cracker, but also ate a cup of peaches! We were happily surprised. That was a precursor for how the day would go.
Ugh, sometimes I am completely drop-dead exhausted by the time I put C to bed at 7pm. The last thing I want to do is wash his bottles, and I certainly don’t have the energy for P90X. Last night was one of those nights. I melted into the couch and watched The Bachelor, my Monday night trash TV of choice. By the time that was over, it was 9pm and I just felt like cruising Twitter or flipping TV channels.
I had forgotten what having energy felt like! I’m filled with energy that I don’t know what to do with. While organizing and certain other tasks still feel overwhelming, I’ve been baking and dancing around. It’s wonderful. I’m like a new woman! There’s a long way to go, but I’m already feeling a teeny tiny bit like my old self. It’s nice to finally catch a glimpse of her.
A while back, I purchased three prenatal workout DVDs with the intention of working out daily to stay fit and keep my muscles loose. I did them for a while, but once I hit my third trimester, it has been very difficult to work up the energy to work out. I often put on my workout attire and then end up sitting on the couch for a while, unable to work up enough energy. Eventually, I give up and take a shower.