For several months, we were uber excited to have NYE plans with some of our bestest of friends. It would be about 5 months since we’d last seen them, and the hubster and I have no plans to make the long haul back to visit before the baby is born…so it would probably be another 6 months before we would see them again.
Then NYE got closer and the weather report came out. Why on earth would it warm up so much that we would get rain?! It is DECEMBER 31st for heaven’s sake. So there it is – dense fog due to the warm air over the melting snow cover.
If it had just been the hubster and me, we would have made the trip while checking on the road conditions as we traveled. I feel terrible not making the trip to see them, both because we really were looking forward to some quality fun time with them and because my friend had so sweetly planned an elaborate dinner menu. But this morning, as our baby was kicking around in my belly, I knew that if anything were to happen I would never be able to forgive myself.
After all, this summer my doctor told me that we would have a difficult time conceiving when it came time for us to start a family. Even though that part of our lives was about five years into our planned future, I was devastated. The month before, we had just celebrated our first anniversary and my 23rd birthday…and now I found out we’d possibly never have children. The next month I found out I was pregnant.
It is no small miracle that we’re expecting our little boy; and while it took me the entire first trimester to outgrow the shock of the situation, I wouldn’t trade it for the world. It’s funny how life surprises you. Less than 10 years ago, I thought I’d be this big-shot career woman who would never even want children. Now I’m going to be a stay-at-home mom in just a few months.
So even though we’re both devastated that we won’t be able to spend tonight with dear, fun friends, I am also thankful for the reason we made this decision. And we’ll get to see our friends tomorrow – so it will just be a postponement of one day