It’s possible to overcome PPD twice!

Letting the light in - beating PPD twice

Two children. Two rounds of postpartum mood disorders. PPD, PPA, PPOCD and antepartum depression (during pregnancy) with Baby Jo. My mental health during and after pregnancy is kind of a crapshoot.

Baby Jo is turning one next week. I have been Continue Reading…

Down to Zero: Round Two

Here we go, here we go! Down to zero!

After working with my psychiatrist to taper off of my antidepressant, I finally went down to zero again last week. I anticipated the withdrawal and am relieved to report that it has been much easier than last time, when I came Continue Reading…

The Time I Left My Psychiatrist’s Office More Depressed Than When I Went In

I finally, finally had an appointment with my psychiatrist today. The office kept scheduling me for days he had off. I was originally supposed to see him in October. Ha! Anyway, I’ve been wanting to get off of Zoloft. Baby Jo is nearly 10 months old and Continue Reading…

Weight Gain From Antidepressants and Adjusting to the Body Image Consequences

I make no secret of the fact that I took antidepressants for PPD/PPA/PPOCD when C was a baby, and I chose to start them again at the end of my pregnancy with Baby Jo. There’s a dark side to my experience with them that I haven’t shared before, because Continue Reading…

Weaning off of Zoloft

Here we go again! I’ve decided to wean off of my SSRI that I’ve been taking for postpartum depression. I started taking Zoloft when I was about 34 weeks pregnant with Baby Jo, because I was experiencing intrusive thoughts and anxiety reminiscent of Continue Reading…

I Am The Face of PPD. #ForMiriam

ForMiriam

Today, I’m writing about a topic very close to my heart. You probably heard about the woman who was killed after leading police on a chase around the Capitol. Miriam Carey will not be able to speak for herself, but her actions were reportedly related to Continue Reading…

Bath Time With a Staph Infection

The last few days were highly stressful. I always keep my cool, but there were times when I didn’t think I could handle it. C was tested for a staph infection on Thursday morning and it came back positive midday Friday. There were a few hours when Continue Reading…

Thank God for the SSRI

I know that some people don’t believe in psychotropic medication, and some may believe stigma about the people that take them. I really hate stigma and that’s why I’m an open book about my mental health. Quite frankly, I would be lost right now without Continue Reading…

Feeling Flat

I’m not talking about my chest. Though, my baby did steal my breasts. But that’s a story for a different day…

When you’re really stressed, do you ever feel the need to just have a good, cathartic cry? The occasional good cry has always been a Continue Reading…

Climb Out of the Darkness for Postpartum Progress!

Once upon a time (or, not long ago at all), I was diagnosed with a postpartum mood disorder. I was scared, suffering and lost. I thought I would never find myself again. I didn’t know anyone who had been through what I was experiencing, and that was terrifying Continue Reading…

I Made The Right Decisions

My second pregnancy brought about a lot of decisions that I needed to make. Considering my history of postpartum depression, emergency cesarean and hyperemesis, there were some difficult choices I had to make.

Taking Antidepressants as a Precaution
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Breathing It All In

When I think back to the days and weeks after C was born, I don’t remember that much. I was trying desperately to breastfeed, but felt like I was failing. Hubster and I were extremely sleep deprived. C developed colic around his second week of life. Continue Reading…