It’s Time to Let Go of the Fear

On Biloxi, MS beach

My whole life was ahead of me in 2008. I owe it to her to let go of my fears and really live to my fullest potential.

There’s something that I am afraid of. I’m not talking about roller coasters or spiders (*flails wildly*), I’m talking about failure.

I am afraid that I will fail at the biggest thing I want to do for myself: losing weight.

I haven’t been comfortable with my body weight since college and, if I’m going to be perfectly honest, I wasn’t really comfortable with it then either. That discomfort was due to adolescence and body image insecurities, but it was there. Seven years, two kids, and two rounds of postpartum mood disorders later, I’m confident in what my body can do. It is stronger than I thought possible, determined to a fault. I should love it unconditionally for that and worry less about the imperfections.

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Mamavation Monday: I’m Halfway to My Goal!

If you’ve been visiting me here for a while, you know that I’ve had a major struggle to lose weight in the past 5-ish years since I’ve had PCOS.  But today I am SO happy to report that I am now halfway to my weight loss goal!

HALFWAY!  WOOHOO!

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A Struggle With Body Image

I’m kind of nervous to put this “out there,” because I’ve always kept my struggles with body image and weight very quiet.  But I realize that I’m not the only woman with this inner battle, so I’ve decided to just own it.

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Pushing Myself Is Worth It

Ugh, sometimes I am completely drop-dead exhausted by the time I put C to bed at 7pm.  The last thing I want to do is wash his bottles, and I certainly don’t have the energy for P90X.  Last night was one of those nights.  I melted into the couch and watched The Bachelor, my Monday night trash TV of choice.  By the time that was over, it was 9pm and I just felt like cruising Twitter or flipping TV channels.

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We’re Taking the P90X Challenge!

Hubster and I have decided to take the P90X challenge!  Okay, so the truth is that I’m excited about it and he’s begrudgingly going along with it.  I’ve been curious about this extreme 90-day fitness program for quite some time, but was always too scared to try.  One 5k and three Mamavation Two-Week Challenges later, I feel more confident in my abilities.

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A Weight Loss Journey

Weight loss is not something that I’ve blogged about before.  There are many people who know me personally that read this blog, and it’s not a topic that I wanted to share.  For some reason, blogging about what breastfeeding does to your body is easy for me but opening up about weight loss is too personal.  I’ve decided that maybe if I’m more open about it, it might be an easier journey to be on.  So here goes…

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The Postpartum Clothing Void

I was really hoping that by now I’d be able to comfortably fit into my pre-pregnancy pants.  I can button them!  I just can’t breathe.

I’ve been working out once/day (sometimes twice!) for the past few weeks and have lost inches…but not enough off of my waist.

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30-Day Shred

Have you tried the 30-Day Shred workout DVD by Jillian Michaels?  I first tried it before my wedding and it definitely delivers.  I figured that since I’m in much worse shape post-baby and c-section, I might as well give it a shot.

I completed day two of level one today and my muscles are screaming for mercy!  My ab muscles have never burned so much during a workout.  I find myself cursing my c-section during every ab-focused portion.  Argh.  I’m glad that I’ve done this before, because I remember that days two and three are the most difficult.

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Breastfeeding is the Best Diet Ever!

This afternoon I had my two-week doctor appointment to check on my cesarean incision.  I was worried about stepping on the scale at the doctor’s office, because I inevitably weigh more there than I do at home.  Admittedly, I kept my shoes on so that if the result wasn’t favorable I could blame it on that. ;)  However(!), I lost 22 pounds!!!!  I am SO excited.  The most activity I have been able to do in the past 13 days since C’s delivery is going on a couple of slow walks and running a few brief errands around town.  Therefore, I have come to the conclusion that breastfeeding is simply the best diet ever.

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Post-Cesarean Weight Loss

One of the things that devastated me the most about needing a c-section was the length of recovery.  I was so looking forward to starting to work out sooner and losing the baby weight, plus some weight that I had been working off before I found out I was pregnant.  I’m still eagerly anticipating getting back into my Tae-Bo, pilates and Jillian Michaels’ 30-Day Shred workouts.

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